~ChEeZyChEdDaRcHeEsE~

Things I’d invest my money on:

1-Food
2-Really good food
3-Great food
4-Kite flying

Despite my love fo food,I’d actually pay someone to take me kite flying.I’ve made kites.In primary school it was those typical diamond shaped made of cheap colour paper, sticks & normal thread. No doubt they were made for the purpose of NOT to fly.During matriculation,for the first time we had an actual project to build a kite.One that’ll grant you merits should you’re able to make them fly. Never got to test mine out.So I’ll never know if it was able to fly.

The end product wasn’t all that neat.It was a horrendous mixture of red,yellow & black fabric drawn over with orange ‘picasso cum batik’ like design (talk about bad design fr an architecture student).Basically there wasn’t much to look at and I wasn’t surprised about the grade either.But..it was the only thing I hadn’t destroyed out of my gallery of ‘art’ work.

The only thing that made it stand out was that it was a box kite.The frame was made of hand cut bamboo and they were tied together with thin strips of them as well.It was made for real.My father was the one who had ‘engineered’ it while I stood watch.He was good at things like this…at making things.It wasn’t the only thing he’s made for us.He’s made us toy guns out of wood (using rubber & sum kinda small berry-like fruit as bullets),a fishing pole out of bamboo,he’s even sown my barbie a ‘dress’.My father..the engineer.

If I was the one who’d made the kite,I’d definitely thrown it away ages ago - hated all of my so called ‘art’ work.It now sits solemly in the store room covered with atleast 6 years worth of dust.I bet it wishes to fly..to serve it’s actual purpose..and to fulfill it’s nature of to be flown.

Personally I see a slim chance of it being able to fly.Unless for some strange reason we’re hit with a hurricane of course..But then again,that wouldn’t be considered as ‘flying’ more like ‘blown away’ actually..hahaha.And so I think it’s best for it to just sit quietly the way it is until I can figure out what I’ll be doing with it in the future.

I’ve seen people flying kites.I’ve passed them each time I’m on my way to uni or on my way home from uni.For 5 years I’ve watched them. I may not know anything about flying one,but I know I enjoy watching them.Now..I’ve lost such previlege since graduation.And I miss it.So much.

Flying a kite is a dream.It may sound silly but still,it’s a dream.A simple dream.Yet,it’s a far fetched dream.

Favourite word of the day (or over the past weeks/week to come rather) "NISA".Why?Is it because I’m a favouritable person by nature?(I doubt it) or is it because I’m highly intellectual?(I keep telling myself that perhaps I am..haha).They’re planning to celebrate world planning day (which I deem unnecessary).Nisa this and Nisa that.They chant my name over & over again.My mind hasn’t been at ease.

Been having dinners outside.Come to think of it,I’ve been having breakfasts,lunches outside too.I won’t peek in my bank acc because I can guess how little I have left & I needn’t be checking on my weight either..we all know where that one’s at.

That aside,I’ve been having friendly visits on working days.Helps to keep my mind a lil sane (if not much).Atleast I get to talk/listen to any topic..in addition remind me how to laugh.(Zul..Kawar da rasmikan opis aku..siap potong2 riben & sign ‘plak’ lagi..hahaha..).  I’ve also discovered that my sense of humour might be wearing off because I can’t seem to get/rather slow at getting jokes told by my colleagues..especially those with simillar rank or higher.My social life is a bore & conversations are often done in serious manner. I MUST BE GETTING OLD!!!  x_x

The weekend’s here..yeyy..yeyy..yeyyyy!!!Although I tried escaping at 5pm sharp,ended up leaving late..(my boss has killer instincts)when all the gates were locked & left me feeling rather "lost" for a moment.It dawned upon me that perhaps my laptop wasn’t the only thing that has been shut down..my brain seems to have been as well.

Found myself a new hobby;a de-stresser really.Blocks of wood.Cut into different sizes & angles.The objective is to rearrange the blocks into the shapes shown in the ‘manual’ (100 combinations to be exact..all rating your level of iq).No cheat sheets tho.Though experiments with friends,colleagues & siblings (myself included) it has been proven to be challenging. Which leaves me feeling at ease now that I know that I’m not suffering from any acute uncreative thinking disorder  -_-" and have normal adult iq.As long as it’s able to block out the things I really don’t need to be hearing or thinking about..I’m pretty much happy.

And tomorrow.Yes..the weekend issue.Not so much of a weekend afterall..I hear them calling me..Wicked they are.Yet they’re only a bunch of paper.Having thoughts of dissing me colleague (here’s the part where I become invisible)

Macam mana hendak maju.Kalau…

Malas dan hanya pandai menolak-nolak kerja kepada orang lain.

Takut untuk tampil kehadapan dan memberi buah fikiran tetapi dengki apabila orang lain melakukannya.

Lebih suka berdiam diri tetapi menyuarakan rasa tidak puas hati dibelakang orang.

Tidak pandai memberi teguran yang membina sebaliknya pandai menghina.

Suka mementingkan diri dan sombong apabila berjawatan tinggi

Berani dan lantang dibelakang tetapi takut apabila diajak bersemuka

Yang tua tidak menghormati yang muda,tetapi ingin dihormati pula

Suka menggunakan perkataan "tidak" "tak nak" "tak boleh" "tak tahu" dan apa sahaja yang bermula dengan "tak"/"tidak"