~ChEeZyChEdDaRcHeEsE~

After reading a blog (the author shall remain anonymous fr MY safety reasons..haha) I realize that I’m not actually all THAT pathetic when it comes to love.And so I’ve managed to ‘hover’ on this one particular guy fr YEARS and in the end he treated me with the utmost ‘rudeness’ AND somewhat broke my heart.Needly to say I was badly hurt.So what??!!Atleast I’ve moved on,and in the process managed to lose all sense of humanity for him as well.For now,it’s no mercy!I seriously don’t know what others see in him..not even as a friend,what more as a ‘best’ friend..go figure..

Talked to a friend recently.Mentioned how another so-called friend of hers shouted rather cruel words at her over the phone.Well the guy’s not exactly all that polite to begin with anyway.And my friend could just bear listening to all those words without saying a thing..nw tht’s just plain ’stupid’ (sorry but I really have to say it out).Being a male doesn’t give you the right to raise your voice.And pls don’t give reasons like "I’m not raising my voice,tht’s just they way I talk!".Well,CHANGE the way you talk then!Suddenly,my life didn’t seem so bad..atleast I’m not in the ’sedang makan hati’ stage.

I hate men who think they’re smart, even more of the men who think they’re smarter than women!Don’t get me wrong despite tht,I do love intelligent men.It’s just not a good practice to be correcting someone all the time,why make someone feel so low about themselves?Makes you look as if winning/competing at everything,was something you actually needed.Now, the saying where men being smarter than women?Seems so KOLOT la..dulu maybela now no more.Wake up dears!"Some" of you are indeed smarter,no doubt..while the rest are not..so let’s not be too over confident thinking that you’re the former.

I’m happy with myself.At this stage where there isn’t anything that I actually want.Not this,not that,not even him..whoaaaaaaa

                                                                                                    These four walls thought me to live

These four walls toughen me

These four walls educated me

These four walls were my life

Those four walls..were my studio

I miss KAED a whole lot.Miss the tiring late nights in studio.The various loud songs popping from different pcs & laptops simultaneously.I miss having the boys buying food during stay ups.I miss the idiocy,the silly jokes that lit up at 3am.I miss being in a group doing work..that’s what I miss the most.

I thought project paper was going to be a bliss.A nice holiday "away" frm it all.Well,tht turned out to be wrong.I used to think old ppl are always much nicer than the younger generations.I was dead wrong! They cud really be wicked..atleast the ones in P.J la.

Went to P.J old town.YES!It was very much old.The houses even had chimneys!(I have no idea why..).They have ONE ingress which also happens to be the egress as well.They have 7 cctvs hooked up all around YET almost each resident has 2 or more dogs!The roads may only pass 1 car.The back lanes are barred with trees.And the folks are weary about anyone who enters into their neighbourhood.And old people need not necessarily bear the "I’m nice" tags on their forehead here.Yes..this is heaven for them.

There is salt in the air

There is salt in the water

And the tide is against me

The tidal waves crash down upon me

They threatened to drown me

While the wicked wind

Tries to blow me off course

The sun burns me

It blinds me

They’re all against me

Then why do I go agaist them?

Because I want to reach paradise

One that not even I, am certain of it’s existence