~ChEeZyChEdDaRcHeEsE~

aku yang tak pernah bisa lupakan dirinya
yang kini hadir diantara kita
namun ku juga takkan bisa menepis bayangmu
yang slama ini temani hidupku

Reff :
maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya
dan demi waktu yang bergulir di sampingmu
maafkanlah diriku sepenuh hatimu
seandainya bila ku bisa memilih

kalau saja waktu itu ku tak jumpa dirinya
mungkin semua tak kan seperti ini
dirimu dan dirinya kini ada di hatiku
membawa aku dalam kehancuran

(demi waktu-ungu)

I see her green eyes.She answers my calls;smart not doubt in that,I could tell by the ears!She listens to me.She makes do with her handicap;it becomes not a liability.She hasn’t lost her sense of balance-she could stand on her hind legs,she could play about;even with just one arm.She can run,though not as fast yet enough to get away when sensed danger.She is not amongst the enemy.

kimi ga tabidatsu hi wa
itsumo to onaji  "jaa ne" to te wo futta
marude ashita mo mata
kono machi de au mitai ni
  On the day you go on a journey,
  you waved your hand & said "goodbye" like you always do
  It seems like we’ll meet in this town even tomorrow

ai wo shinjiru no wa  jibun ni mo makenai koto
yume ga kanau hi made
egao no mama hoshi o mite inori sasage koko ni iru kara
  Believing in love isn’t giving up to yourself
  Until the day the dream is granted,
  I’ll be here smiling, looking at the stars, & offering a prayer

* watashi wa kimi ni totte no sora de itai
kanashimi made mo tsutsumikonde
itsu demo miageru toki wa
hitori ja nai to
tooku de omoeru you ni
kaeru basho de aru you ni
  I want to be in the sky for you
  & embrace even your sadness
  Whenever I’m looking up, I’m not alone
  It seems like I can think from far away
  It’s like it’s a place where I return to

kimi ga inai machi de
aikawarazu ni genki de sugoshiteru
sore ga ima watashi ni
dekiru koto  sou omou kara
donna dekigoto ni mo
kakureteru imi ga aru no
yume ga kiekaketemo
jibun rashiku ite hoshii
donna toki mo koko ni iru kara
  In the town where you’re not in,
  I’m still passing the days cheerfully
  That’s what I can do for you now
  That’s what I think
  It doesn’t matter if there’s a hidden meaning
  in everything that happens
  Even if your dream begins to disappear,
  I want you to be like yourself
  I’ll always be here

namida nakusu hodo tsuyoku nakutemo ii
tsukareta kokoro yasumasete ne
suteki na ashita wo negai nemuri ni tsuite
chiisana kodomo no you ni
  It’s ok even if you’re not so strong that the tears disappear
  Let your soul rest
  I wish for a wonderful tomorrow & go off to sleep
  like a small child

kono hiroi sekai wa tsunagatteru yo
shiroi kumo wa nagare kaze ni natte
kimi no moto e
  This wide world is connected
  The white clouds drift & become the wind
  that goes to you

watashi no koe wa todokimasu ka?
afureru kimochi ienakatta
  Does my voice reach you?
  I couldn’t tell you my overflowing emotions

=Why God,do I smile & laugh..when all I want to do is cry?Why does it hurt inside,that it makes you stop breathing for a moment:your heart aches..your tears won’t run..you weep inside:each tear burns from within..=

31st March

Went out to K.L for official reasons..so many cute guys at the station-damn! -_-" On the way back got an Almond Magnum…(tastes even better when eaten during rainy days..haha.. ).Made a quick stop at Carrefour before the ‘visiting session’..managed to talk someone into buying me an ‘aventurine’ yey!My rose quartz were fading,suppossedly I was told that if they faded that means the powers are working on you..but is it?For dinner?hehe..(I must have the convincing aura) we had dinner at Hj Samuri..the abc was soooooooooooooooo kewl!!!!!!!!Went back to campus and met up with Wanee whom I’ve missed so much..(got another b’day present today too..haha & it’s already April!) Wonder how vanilla really tastes like..rite Wanee?

1st April

Despite being April Fool’s day,I came across no pranks.Today’s time were to be spent with the senior guys- was out to K.L again today;doin our ritual outing activity ^_^ After that,had some time in Jln TAR;to watch they guys devour some cendol while hitting on some girls..whereas I on the other hand,had ice-blended mocca (and could not ‘hit’ on anyone coz there were no cute hunks) -_-"  Then got a lift home..(Thank God,for my feet were hurting..).Got home,and burried my head in CLEO’s 50 most elligible bachelors..2 things which most of them have admitted to:

-men make the worst liars (yet we become the fools who fall for them somehow..oh yeah,there’s that thing called ‘love’)

-men get weak when it comes to women (I shall keep my comments to myself on this..haha)

2nd April

Today’s menu was chilli crabs (by yours truly..)tapi…terpedas pulak!Despite the ‘hissing’,we devoured it anyway..hey,it wasn’t all bad okay?!Then it was time to take my sister to PWTC for the book fair WHICH if I might add,had a really confusing route and signage to it (turns out to be in the adjacent building and not the usual place they’ve always held the exhibitions).Made a quick stop at ‘The Mall’ -so many discounts got my head spinning..but when home empty handed (as my pocket was also empty..sob..sob..)

3rd April

Got a really..really GOOD rest.Word of the day?"Rijalul Ghaib" and now..I know!Abang came back and took us to the park (I’m so not a fan of exercise!).Dinner time..aha..the promo lead us to Sushi King…makan besarlaaaa….haha..But wait!All does not end there..for we had Mc Flurry at McD (I see no point in the ‘exercise’ prior that evening..) =p All was good and happy..as I.To top all that,met up with oku today..owh those green eyes!!!! ^_^ (I technically have a three legged cat..which my brother calls "oku" acronym for ‘org kurang upaya’ jahatnye…)

Hope tomorrow will be just as great too…